Getting Started

This is the really hard part...getting up off the ground. I am forty now, unemployed and disabled. Medical bills are piled high. This has got to be the longest winter of my life. I have been chronically ill for over a decade. It has been very hard on my family, my marriage...The last surgery was November 12, 2009, if the don't count the blood patch the week after that for the spinal fluid leak. After having spent about 80% of the last four months in bed, it seems impossible that I could conquer the fatigue, weakness, and the massive weight gain. But I am going to do it. I have 30 pounds to lose. Though I am not lazy, my husband spilled it; he thinks I am. He said he was sorry, and I forgive him, but lazy I am not. I have Interstitial Cystitis (severe), Chronic Pain, Fibromyalgia, Irritable Bowel Syndrome-Constipation Type, and Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. I guess you could add depression. But there is a positive in all of this. I CAN come out of bed a little at a time, and if I can come out of bed some, perhaps I can go outside a littlw more. Maybe I can stand on that Wii Fit. It is exhausting to think about. I have never struggled so much with my health. I can do this. I can do this. There sis a goal. If I can get back down to 135 pounds (from 165), and get some of my energy back, and keep the pain manageable, my husband will take me on our second cruise, but this time, we will renew our wedding vows.